As Sarah is trying to get answers, she’s also handling personal heartbreak: Her grandfather (Ernie Hudson) may be ill. “I think this is one of the beautiful things that we do on the show, and I also think in law enforcement, in general, when you have stuff going on in your life and family,” Lawson notes. “To try to hold all that [in as you’re also dealing with your job]. It’s always on your mind. It wears you out. And I think when stuff like that is going on…it wears down your system.” Lawson points out that even normal things feel like they could be handled better when dealing with a crisis like this. “You’re at a breaking point when things like that are going on,” she says. “One of the beautiful things I love about the writers in doing the show is that all of that plays into everything that we’re doing. Like, it raises the stakes. It raises our emotions. Everything then becomes much more of a threat. And it also is an underlying fear that we are having in everything that we’re doing, of like, ‘How is grandpa doing?’” “We know what those days feel like when you’re trying to be normal, when you’re trying to, like, do work as you always would, but you can’t, because everything’s different and something is wrong and scary,” she continues. “I think it makes everything that much harder and scarier.”
